I hate the way I think. I hate the way I feel about the way I think. I hate the way I feel. I hate the way I dissect how I think and feel. This is so frustrating. I'm all emo and I hate everything right now. Everything. And I don't wanna move.

Weekend

So I had a full on weekend. On Friday I had a bunch of uni/work stuff to do and that was unexciting. But on Friday night I went out to dinner at the Central Markets with Ronnie and Emo.

Hooray. I had noodles with chicken and bok choi and dumplings. It was delicious. And then we went to Cibo for icecream. Emo had to go to work, to deliver babies but Steph and I sat for a while a reminisced about the 90's due to the fact that Chris's 21st to come was 90's themed.
We both loved the Babysitters Club books and subsequently

The Babysitters Club movie. I'd just like to point out though that in the top picture, Mallory is supposed to be 11 and WHAT 11 YEAR OLD WEARS THAT!??

Also how good was Clueless?!? Donald Faison's (Murray) little speech about his use of the word 'woman' in reference to his girlfriend is hilarious.


And who can forget the Spice Girls. I was a HUGE Spice Girls fan. I had a Spice Girls t-shirt and a folder for school. Oh yeah, I was cool.


On Saturday I worked, it was less than exciting. Also then I went to Pritika's house and did her hair for the Law Ball. It was fun, we had a girlie chat and I LOVED her dress.
I had to go home and pimp myself 90's style. Think side pony. Oh yeah I went there.
And then it was to Jono's house for Chris and Jono's joint 21st.

Jono getting his drink on.
It was a good night. Except for when I stacked it HARDCORE right at the end of the speeches in front of EVERYONE and did my ankle in. So not only am I full of shame and embarrassment but ALSO my ankle is black and puffy. ALSO, I wasn't totally drunk, only a little bit, and Jono's mum sees me in the LAP room and recognised me and I had to be all assuring that I was a) okay and b) not drunk.

What else?

I had my oral presentation on Tuesday and it went really well. Also I think it's sort of helped me decide what I want to do with my life. Maybe.

Also, this is a picture of one of the 1st year WAAPA students preparing for their show.
So freakin cool.


I don't really have much more to say thank god. I should go and finish my tute prep.
Oh, I'm up to the last ever episode of Veronica Mars and I can't bear to watch it. I dont want it to be over!!

xoxo

Take Two

This is a post I wrote almost 3 years ago. It's a shame that it still rings true...

I hate that HE can make her cry, that he can make her feel so happy and so sad within a split second.
I hate that SHE fucks people around without any shred of evidence of feeling
I hate that I am still not over what happened then, and that SHE seems to be entirely unaffected
I hate that HE could turn out so bad, and that I was deluded for so long
I hate that HE is involved at all because He is not a nice person
I hate that SHE is never around to feel the pain everyone else feels because SHE's a wimp, and in hiding
I hate that SHE beat me in going through this, just like she always does, its not supposed to be a competition, but somehow it is...
I hate that HE makes me want to kill and kiss him at the same time
I hate that SHE is a hypocrite, yet know I am also
I hate that SHE thinks she's in control when she's really not
I hate that HE gets on his high horse and wont get the fuck off
I hate that a person can be treated like shit and then called 'sweetheart' 2 seconds later

It's a real shame that I remember who all of those are about except one. And that most of them are still true.
I'm having alot of trouble with my friends at the moment. There's so much shit going on. So much animosity. So many secrets. So many people lying to each other. Cheating. Lying. Backstabbing. Pretending. I hate it.

Whenever we go out recently, I find out more people who don't like each other but who just pretend. And what for? What do they get out of it? A and B don't like each other. C HATES D who's THIS close to bedding his ex girlfriend E. A also hates D, as does F. G is hated by pretty much everyone but that's cuz he cheated on H to be with I. I is an idiot because recently G hit on I's friend J. K and L just broke up which makes everything awkward especially as K will probably now hook up with M, a very faux friend.
God I could keep going which is just depressing.

On another note. I have a 90's party to go to on Saturday.
I think I'll channel Deb from Napoleon Dynamite

Gotta find myself a bumbag, a side ponytail, and some boon doggles.



Also look how gorgeous she is.


Also this chick, Kristeen Young, is pretty cool. I'm going to start wearing my hair like that. It's hot.

That's about it.
xoxo